GOODBYE 2010

WELCOME 2011!

Im still standing here, the same time inspiring others

sometimes i never thought that stories of mine would inspire others

would charge up others

would motivate others

thanks to my partner Jonny

you're always the friendly coach of mine

haha

I thought i cant stand it any longer

in fact im so clear that what i want

it's either i get to do what i'm interested without worries

or study for 5 years and come back Msia with better income

or do what i wanna do and die poor

i've just gonna make my choice

it's still my life anyway

im thankful that i'm still standing here

im thankful for those who stands beside me

im thankful for that cherry who always be there by my side

im thankful

when i realised!

tuut...
went for a cheated guitar lesson for 1 month,
but i did like the guitar teacher a lot,
Mr.J-son.

that month i was thinking,
i thought i would just quickly finish that guitar lesson in that centre and quickly ran off,
after all i thought that maybe i would only wna learn guitar for fun,
but after a long thought for myself,
i would really wanna involve myself in contemporary music,
*not classical dead ones*
but what makes myself to hold back is actually my own attitude,
which i only want me myself to support me in music
which makes me feel guilty all the time,
and mr Aw feels weird all the time...

he always says:
"you're thinking too much, just go for it!"
"no, it's expensive and i dont wna spend mum's money on it!"
"......"
".......... what?"
"go talk about it to your mum first!"

in fact my mum said,
"u like it? go for it la! i'll buy u a guitar as present"

=.= i know, i've been thinking a lot,
i know, i always wanted to be independent,
in fact i dont use money wisely all the time...

lol...
okay alright ohwell,
i'll just go for it i guess~

youngest sis is learning hew own,
so i wanna learn the basics steps one and continue to learn from mr J-son,
i would really hope that i could have a chance to visit my friend's studio sometimes,

^^ earn hard! play hard!

有你真好

如今

不再是我一个人在拼

不再是我一个人在扛

不再是我一个人在过

只因有你在

有你真好

以前的那一年

那时已经感受得到

只因自己还不确定

加上自己贪新鲜

很容易被新事物牵引掉

你仍然还在保持着沉默

默默付出

被你那份坚持有所感动

被你那份勇气有所打动

知道你的突破是不易而来

也知道多半是为了我吧? :)

往往到某些事情发生以后

在自己情绪最低落的时候

才察觉到自己真正的心情

但想到那时已经疏远的感觉

只好否定自己

不想复杂化了

曾有一阵子

没有勇气踏出那一步

害怕拥有而失去的那种感觉

宁愿维持着现状

在自己需要的时候期待能有你的出现

但现在已迎刃而解了吧？

有你真好

我是那么认为的

也许你太过了解了吧？

在你身上藏不到我的秘密

就算没表露

你却感受得到

至少我有你的支柱

接下来的日子

我不晓得以后会是怎么样

但至少我为了以后付出现在

体谅我为了梦想而奔拼的日子

幸亏有你

有你真好

Penang Trip

If people asked me

"what's the most memorable time with you and your coll friends?"

i would say,

the greatest unexpectable sudden planned trip to penang...

9 of us,

3 cars,

waste of petrol,

but it was worth it all...

penang!

balcony of our hotel

Its a tiring day for the first day actually,

as we drove all night until the morning,

it was amazing to see the sunrise from the car,

perfect colour scheme of yellow, blue and pink!

too bad my camera wasnt with me...

funny pose 1
funny pose 2 (etc)

we did enjoy quite a monent in our hotel after the nap~

kek lok si temple

we are the fans of guan yin ma~~~



persiaran gurney

coffee island cafe

must admit that its a nice place with

nice environment

nice food

nice music

nice wind

LOVE that place so so so much!

me eating my fillet plus the extremely delicious wasabi sauce!!
WOOO!!
i will go for the other time when i come back penang!




did spend some time in exploring DSLR camera,
took quite a lot of pictures with it,
feel like getting one for myself,
but its kinda over budget~
anyhow loved the feel of focusing the objects,
hope that i get the chance to improve my skills...


peranakan mansion

(the place where little nyonya was shooted)

the private temple the baba and nyonya used to have,

its gorgeous i could say,

and i love the place so much!

i personally like the angle of this piano being shooted,

thumbs up for ken!

cute chikins...

cute ba zang~~

fish spa

we went to queensbay mall for a walk,

suprisingly i wasnt afraid of fish anymore after this fish spa,

not like the other time when i was eaten by the 1 feet long fish in sabah...

Roy- horse

it was the first time riding horse by the beach,

it felt so.... ?? ?? not steady,

ann ann was suffering behind as her XXX hurts,

but i kinda enjoy it a lot,

it feels so classic to be on it!

batu ferringhi's beach

bought souvenirs



Penang bridge

i wont forget this days with you guys...

Annie

Luppy

Ken

Ann Ann

Khor

Nelson

Wenzi

Leong

these days will be the best memory of us...

WE LOVE BIN-NING!!

o.O again...

i wonder if my blog is gonna grow mushrooms someday,
my last update was in AUG! wow,
and its september ending coming to oct now...
XD elo people, sorry for the delay~

next monday we have to pass up our programming,
been wondering what's gonna happen on that day...
its been 8 weeks since our programming start,
and the result decides whether you're going sem 6 or just retake sem 5,
i dunno what to say,
seems... so... complicated to have this kind of feeling,
like u cared about it but in the same time u cant come out anything yet...

yesterday was strange,
i tried to went out alone,
taking lrt to klcc,
wanna try to find something from kinokuniya,
so i can add in sth new for my project perhaps...
but it's been my first time to go out alone,
like... er... i've been thinking how does it feel to go out alone,
to walk alone,
even watch movie alone...
it's just so, alone... -.-
although i can go everywhere i want and when i want...

tuut... then annie called...
"evonne chua why did you go back ulu yam so fast?"
"no ah, i didnt go back ah..."
"where are you?"
"klcc lo, alone..."
"HA? WHY?"
"just wna feel how is it to be alone lo.."
"something wrong?"

lol, its just so not me to be alone i guess,
haha... then annie joined me for movie at last,
watched the legend of fist,
donnie yen was so cool!!!!
another movie idol of mine~~
but i guess i'll try another time,
to feel like how is it gonna be when u're watching movie alone...

back to assignment,
aih... i hope its gonna be okay,
nothing bad is gonna happen,
that's why i cant sleep early tonight,
but its already 2:22 am, bullshxt~~
just came back from green green supper,
vry nice anyway...

it's time to shower!
and do work!!!!

see ya~

last week internship...

next week will be the last week of my internship!
from the first day i step into CMCDesignworks,
until now, its been 3 months!!

well, it's not a bad thing to finish my practical training,
but still there's a weird feeling going inside,
i'm gna miss my desk and my chair,
lol...

i've learn a lot of skills i could say,
sadly not much in design,
but i guess things weren't that bad anway,
at least i get to experience how working life is,
and definitely, i guess i'll give myself maximum of 5 years working life,
the lesser the better of course,
ahaha...
at least i see what can i contribute from what i learn...

well things are going positive i can see,
i've gradually moving to a different position and situation,
i'm not the me i know before,
at least now im not alone,
i've got a bunch of partners growing,
and that's a good news!
we'll be time free in future,
just stop being comfort now!

speaking of im not alone,
i'm actually alone in the other stories,
i'm the only single person left in my entire hometown group,
4 of them, have their loves one,
me? still remain single...
these days im kinda... err... emotional-ly imbalance,
haha, suddenly everything is not the same,
time moves on,
cant let this kind of stupid feeling distract me,
ahaha... but still i feel glad for them of course,
at least everyone around me is happy..

sometimes there are still question floating in my mind,
something that i dont understnad why,
something that i need time to realise and digest...
i believe answers are beyond in me,
just that i need time to dig it out...

cheers...

O.o

its been a month since i update my blog,
way toooo busy...
don't even have the time to msn,
probably facebook still ok to browse through at office,
ahaha...

things looking good,
i guess think positive did really work well,
although there's some heartbroken times,
but overall its a good start!

still in office doing stupid autoCad,
going off soon,
see ya!

its been... 2 years...

everytime, everytime i played the song of anime's theme and soundtrack,
on the keys of black and white,
honey and clover,
final fantasy,
joe hisaishi's pieces,
or whatever is it,
songs from you,
i'll think about moment's we've been through together,
and it all ended so soon,
until now its been... 2 years...

i could say that those days we've been together was really the greatest moment ever in my life,
part of my greatest memories of my life,
it turns out to be some phases that we cant get it through,
till now i actually dont know what's the real reason for this to end up,
everytime i think about it,
maybe's its because of me being immature at that moment?
i really don't know...?

places we've been,
brings back some pictures everytime i went there,
reminds me of something,
reminds me of happiness,
reminds me of sadness,
just... it's still clear in my head,
well i really had to admit that,
i do miss you sometimes...

anyway, i dont know where u r now,
probably still in overseas,
or back to malaysia,
or... somewhere outside... just that,
if only we could meet again i thought,
it will be different i guess...

good luck in your life anyway,
bye...

V-Malaysia 2010

i believe that these few days is part of my most unbelievable days in 2010,

n i really never thought of mdeting Nick Vujicic for real,

not in YOUTUBE anymore!!

he inspired me a lot,

from the stories he told of how he became a speaker,

how he went through all those hard times being different from the others,

but that's not the reason from stopping him to achieve what he wanna do,

and i totally respect that!

for not giving any excuses in doing whatever i want to do,

perhaps it might not be easy for me to be as tough as him,

but at least every problem i solve makes me realized a new thought,

just keep on moving until i see the flag i desire...

for those who doesn't wanna see me success,

i bet they're still out there somewhere...

screw them for not knowing what they even want in their life...

i wont bother much tho...

XD

well this Vcon Malaysia is totally a new experience for me,

to get the chance to meet people from all around the world,

the whole scene for me is like watching World Cup live,

people are waving their country flags and of course,

the theme of FIFA keep on playing in the stadium,

walah!!

the whole world is dancing with the beat!

cant make me stop moving around them!!

of course i get the chance to take photos with all these people,

people form egypt, brazil, africa, hong kong, china,

indonesia, philipines, singapore, thailand, turkey,

europe, british u name it!!!

but i didnt post all the photos of course,

see more in facebook!!

Experienced networkers giving speech,

Nick Vujicic on stage,

Performance from local or overseas,

o.o that's more than i expect,

i'll give myself 3 more years in this,

after that i'll be going all around the world,

for those who think that i'm crazy,

just look what happens after this 3 years...

and also,

i'm in the process of beautifying myself now,

say goodbye of the pale old me,

ahaha...

GOTCHA!

everyday i'll listen to hitz fm jj and ean's gotcha call,

feels fun to listen to their conversation,

and hw ppl react after they realize they're on air with a prank call,

GOTCHA!! tuut!!

but i never expect i'll get a gotcha trick from boss today,

a real good one!

after he went meeting with a friend of him at the conference room,

he walked beside me and said,

"evonne!"

i stood up, kinda shocked,

"yes?"

"my friend told me that actually interns are not need to be paid..."

im like, what? i was about to ask you about my salary today!

"u actually need this internship programme for you to graduate is it?"

".... yes...?"

"means if u don't finish the internship programme means you cant graduate, so this programme is already included as part of your course, since you're still studying right?"

"........ yes......???"

"then by right i don't have to pay you then..."

NO!!! FOR ALL THE HARD DAYS I'VE BEEN THRU IN THIS OFFICE!

"er.... but, still depends on the company's decision right?" to pay or not pay to the interns...

"by law you're not suppose to be paid, even thomas (previous internship) i shouldn't have paid him last time..."

"......(speechless)"

"no la im just joking! haha..."

=.= good one... seriously, i was like thinking should i stop going to work next week,

then he said he was joking...

ahaha...

at least its a joke,

i still got my paid,

TODAY!

^^ well, internship is not that bad eh?

tuut...

(if only u get to receive your cheque!)

Changing~~

yea i know that im kinda have different life than the other students,

not so much fun and entertainments anymore,

always spend time to do lots of lots of things that other students might not be doing,

but i know what i want in the future n its definitely music,

cant stand the way of design process which drags me all the way till the day i submit,

its not that i don't like design,

i like it!

but the only prob is i like to get things done fast,

which wouldn't happen in design career,

all you have to do is design, change, design, change,

and u will have that kind of unfinished feeling for like a very long period,

i don't enjoy that feeling, makes me stress!!

but back to reality i can't really do anything bout it once i've chosen this,

what u studied for the past 2 years,

u gonna spend like 30 years of your life to do the same thing??

nah, i still have the choice,

i like music,

but i still have the knowledge of design,

isnt that bad for me to make a choice right?

yet i had plan B for my future already,

life is great when u get to make your own choice,

i don't wna stuck with the same thing for 30 years until i retire!!

things i definitely wanna do before i die:

1. go to yokohama's ferris wheel for a ride

2. look at nothern light

3. having the one n only music album of my own

so far, this 3 first la!

and im so happy that im going to meet Nick Vujicic in this month!

cant wait for the day to come,

and Tony Fernandes too,

the founder of Tune Air,

how great is it to listen to someone who can make everyone fly!

Nick Vujicic

Tony Fernandes

life is great to be colorful!

once again thanks to all of my partners!

and my mom who supports me the most,

well, at least she is always there to listen,

thanks mom...

5 cent story...

That day i was walking to the taxi stop as usual from my condo,

wondering can i made it in time to reach office by 9am...

when i was collecting coins from my purse,

Mr. 5 cent fell on the floor...

"cling!"

but i ignored,

it's only 5 cent i thought,

only worth for a candy perhaps...

by the time i continued walking suddenly a thought appeared on my mind,

why did i notice when my 5 cent fell?

then why somebody did not realise if their RM50 or RM100 was gone??

its like, the spirit of 5 cent! AHAHA...

well at least the 5 cent is trying to tell me that it still worth for something,

a candy perhaps...

not worth as much as RM100 or RM50,

but it still had its own value in it,

5 cent!

"cling! (hey, i fell!)"

==" something like that??

RM100 or RM50 wouldn't make any noise to remind u if they fell off from ur pocket!

hey be like a 5 cent!!

a 5 cent wouldnt care that how people look down at how it worth,

not as much as RM100!!

IT KNOWS ITS VALUE,

AND IT ALWAYS READY TO LET THE WORLD TO KNOW IT BY

MAKING THE "CLING" SOUND AT ANYWHERE IT LANDED!!

sound so political eh? tuuut...

well regarding to what i've realise,

it happened in our life as well,

different standards of society,

everyone has their own value,

a doctor or a farmer?

doesnt mean that doctor who earns much has much more value that a farmer,

they are still equal!

just like what Ip Man says in the movie...

err,

maybe im not that good in delivering msg in english,

should have wrote in mandarin,

but nevermind la...

at least i realise something from my 5 cent,

and i kinda regret for not picking it up!

R.I.P 5 cent!

i'll always remember the lesson u've taught me,

ahaha!!

fell asleep on the toilet bowl...

well, this shouldnt be happened!

but i was really sleepy like hell this morning!

my colleague was explaining what im gna do and i was fishing through the whole process!

OMG...

after he finished talking i went to the toilet,

was thinking of closing my eyes for a minute,

then...

i fell asleep on the toilet bowl...

TUUT!!

until somebody came in and use the toilet,

then i woke up... =.=

aiyoo,

its only the 2nd day and im dying in the office,

how could i....

still 3 months to go!!

ahaha...

oh yea,

today had lunch with them,

heard them talked bout something interesting,

we went to a cafe which the owner is kinda friendly,

she was chatting around with her customers until she said,

"nowdays its hard to get water,

sometimes i see my customer didnt finish their drink i feel waste,

its not good for the environment also...

and people who shower more than once a day,

i think its a waste of water!

it makes our skin dry also if shower a lot,

and i dont understand why some ppl like to shower once they sweat,

then like shower for 3, 4 times a day!

if me i wouldnt shower in the afternoon,

after i shower i sure will sweat,

makes me feel more dirty!!"

we laughed...

and she also said that the USA government is collecting human hairs now,

to absorb the leaking oil in the sea!

now that's cool!!

but its only a proposal la,

dno whether they're gna make this work or not,

ahahaha...

i've hit my first cheque...

thanks to my partners...

lets move on together!!

p/s: food around my office is expensive,

i'm gonna take my own cereal and milk to office's pantry

and have breakfast there everyday,

tuut!!

i dun wna spend another rm5 for 2 sandwich!!

实习第一天~

说真的，

实习我不担心什么，

只是担心他们忘了有请我这个员工，

然后第一次会莫名其妙地看着我，

然后我要不知所措这样，

真是的。

今天七点就爬起来了，

八点出门搭LRT，

人不会太多，

第一次搭LRT是要去做工的，

大家都是上班族，

好像长大了一点的感觉！

还以为会刚刚好，

怎这早半个钟头到公司，

还要公司没有人的那个，

有点无奈，

只好自己先吃个早餐等时间过咯。

好不容易等到有人了！

幸好他知道我是新来的，

幸好没有莫名其妙地看着我！！！

感觉好新鲜哦，

第一次来上班呢！

头一个钟头感觉很奇怪，

因为没有东西做，

只是看着电脑发呆，

又不敢上网，

因为是小公司，

老板的位在我对面罢了！

知道同事给了我一些东西做后，

就觉得时间很快过，

Autocad换layer就这样换了一整天，

还要换三个图，

整天做一样的东西很恐怖，

整天对着电脑更恐怖！

肩膀好酸好酸！！

只是第一天罢了，

就累倒啦，

晚餐也懒得自己驾车出去吃,

只好等明少回来咯。

还要做三个月，

还好同事们都很友善，

还可以说笑以下！

也因为是小公司的关系，

所以我不用担心三个月都做一样的东西！

哈哈哈哈哈哈！

明天又要开工！

去吧！！！！

Umbanana~ Ambernana~ Lemon~

for a person who dont like fish like me,

well,

i'm happy to say that umbanana is the first fish who caught my eye sight,

fell in love with it for the first time...

haha of course at first its a whole tank of yellow fish,

but i've chosen this one!

umbanana and ambernana...

gorgeous color! AHHH!!!!

I HOPE THEY LAST LONG IN NELSON'S TANK!!

umbanana kinda reminds me of bell in beauty and the beast,

when she's wearing her night gawn,

XD too bad he's a MALE!

(ambernana= female,

lemon= male)

3 of the fishes we bought...

top: umbanana

middle: ambernana

bottom: lemon

orange: not important, just neighbour

the first fish which made me fall in love with it,

will always be the only umbanana...

god bless you live strong in that scary tank...

i will visit you tomorrow!!

die hard!!!!!!!!

move on!!

i felt different,
in this few months time i think i've changed a little,

how i used to see my life im having now,

or how i used to judge people around me,

i've learn how to think from another perspectives,

not only to stuck myself in one edge,

but to find another way out when i know how to turn around...

well, maybe,

not everyone will realize bout this,

or maybe no one would wanna care bout this,

but what matters is me myself,

it's gonna be my life,

it's gonna be my future,

who's gonna care bout other people's god damn future?!

i can't actually do anything bout how people think of me,

but i will do something to make my life to be the life i want...

i won't just live like "i know i will go through my life",

instead i must make it like "i must live my life the way i want it to be!"

Nick Vujicic inspired everyone,
and he gave me thoughts of,
there's nothing you cannot achieve,
it just depends on how much u want it,
how long u can stay for it,
whatever it's gonna be,
no matter how hard it is,
as long you don't give up then u'll do it...
that kind of attitude he has in his life,
makes him love his life although he is physically different with other people,
but for him, he's just the same,
he still belongs to where he is...

if we keep on blaming of everything happened around us,

blaming your homework,

blaming your college,

blaming the society,

blaming the government,

is it gonna give you any changes for your life?

would it make you to live better in future??

so, are you still taking everything for granted?

think again...

recently i saw ken's message asking us to watch "The Cove"
that time i thought,
slaughter of dolphins... em...
i'll watch it if i had the time...
and guess what,
i'll feel so regret if i didnt watch it...

i never had many thoughts for dolphins,
until i watched what the japanese hide from the world...
its cruel, its... i don't understand why they did that...

dolphins,
they're one of the animals which are willing to try to communicate with humans,
as you see they won't avoid humans but move closer to them instead,
there's a connection between them and human,
even there's no direct communication happened...
and bout stories of dolphins saving human,
its not a legend, its real...



but what did the japanese did is,
every sept of the year,
fishermen would release high supersonic sounds in the sea,
to frighten the dolphins so that they would swim n gathered to a sea bay.
the next day, dolphin trainers would came to pick those they wanted to bring back to be trained for performing,
while the rest of the dolphins,
would just have to wait to be slaughtered.

one point i dont understand is,
why would they carry out this kind of activity,
since dolphin meat is not highly requested in the market,
yet it's meat contains extremely high level of mercury,
which could affects human health seriously...
they could even blame that dolphins and whales should be killed,
because they affected the standard quantities of fish to be catched...
the human should be blamed! not the dolphins or whales!!
most of the japanese doesnt know about slaughter of the dolphins,
cuz it happens in the place where no one could ever see what's happening...



RIC O'BARRY,
he's the guy who organize a secret team,
to reveal how the dolphins were killed in groups,
to tell the whole world what is happening,
what he did to try to help the dolphins was amazing,
secret missions of setting up hidden cameras,
its risky,
once they were caught there's no chance for another try!
we love you ric...



well, the scene was kinda distracting,
as the whole sea bay turned to be red,
dolphins were struggling when there's no way to run..
those people were just standing on the boat,
stabbing the dolphins with spears as its a piece of cake!
when i was watching i was like,
somebody do something bout it!!
well, luckily they did it...
thanks to them,
people knew what happened...

i hope this cruel activity had already been discriminated...
to set the dolphins free...
finally,
thanks to ken for recommending this!

好啦，真的很够夸张久没有写Blog了啦！
有很多故事都来不及写下去了啦，
很衰的啦。

应该整整一个月没有写咯，
当中发生了很多很多不可思议的事情，
让我领悟到很多很多事情，
也认识了我一直觉得不可能会在我生命出现的人，
听了许多许多的故事，
有时觉得我真的没有白活呢！
更怕不够时间完成我的梦想！
大家保护地球先吧！！

从培训营那天起，
让我深深体会到组员们一起打拼的辛苦，
以前所抱着的心态并不对，
也不算是自以为事，
只是有时候有自己的看法，
可是往往有经验的人，
说的话真的会很难听，
忠言逆耳嘛，
太过自以为事的话也许只能让自己更慢成功吧？
ｅｍｐｔｙ　ｃｕｐ真的需要用在生活中的，

就像最近我认识的一个朋友，
也算是个不可思议吧？
看他平时傻傻的，话又不多说几句，
以为他只是一个平凡的人，
没想到他曾经所经历的从前，
往往超出我的想象，
他比我知道的还要多，
只是他在日常生活中不太表露出来，
觉得有新东西可以学的话只会仔细聆听，
我很记得他说过一句话，
“如果我让人家觉得我什么都会，
那人家怎么还会要教我新东西？
那我又怎么能学到新的东西？？”
对啊，一般上如果我觉得那个人什么都会的话，
我也觉得我没有那种理念想教他东西吧？
反正觉得他应该会的。
所以，不要看到人家装傻的那一面哦！

还有一个人，
我从没有想过我会认识这类人，
只觉得这类人会在电视或书本出现吧？
头一次看到他，
觉得他好有杀气，
应该不是什么好人吧？
很像黑道大哥的脸哦！！
说真的那时我很担心，
甚至作者也觉得很不安。
后来聊着聊着，
才知道他是个流浪汉，
八年来走过了许多国家，
中国台湾缅甸泰国越南到马来西亚，
而且他才大我几岁呢！
他对生活要求并不多，
每天快乐就行了，
而且不赌不喝不嫖，
自己在外面独自生活的那种日子，
这些年来在他身上留下的疤痕和回忆，
我知道一定和其他人不一样，
这真的很不简单，
我这是算什么？
我还在怨什么？
往自己的梦想前进吧！

还有很多东西的，
写不完啊，
现在要出去帮企鹅庆祝生日了！
下集再续！

ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅ．．．

一触即发！这是一个关于我心里的部落格！

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你懂我的　我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊　請別以為你有多難忘
消失　真的不是我逞強

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你知道的　我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊　是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊　人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿
我沒有說謊　是愛情說謊
它帶你來　騙我說　渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊　祝你做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你全遺忘

林宥嘉 – 說謊

以前听到这首歌，
觉得歌词很决！！
好残忍的感觉，
可是到最后，
才知道这歌会一直挖掘在自己最内心的部分，
不过像秋霞女士说的一样，
至少我曾经用心对待，
所以就算一杀那的不愉快，
我也不会后悔。

昨天参与的讲座，
幸好没有想象中可怕！
都是年轻人嘛！哈哈！
有几句话都让我印象深刻，

“波浪遇见阻碍会更澎湃，
信念遇见挑战要更坚定！”

"you complain that you've got no shoes to wear,
until u see a boy with no feet"

"live to serve; serve to live"

这三句话让我有所领悟，
我知道这旅程不容易，
可是至少有你们的陪伴，
我知道在打拼的并不是我自己一个。

it's no fun to be emo!

lol...
went for interview this morning,
in a music centre near jln ipoh,
=.= i cant believe i went there without practicing...
ditch me!
past few days didnt get to find a piano to practice, =p
but still,
i played, and made loads of mistakes,
i'm not sure whether she's gna hire me or not,
for the teachers there some are degree holders,
feel kinda sad cuz i didnt try my best,
that's when i start to become emo for today...

after that went for lunch,
then mr chong called me and ask me to fetch him to bus station,
he's going back pahang today,
all of a sudden...
at first i thought i'm gonna find a doctor for my red eyes,
but it does not go red if i'm not wearing contact lens,
so i'll just save some money from the doctor la,
XD

nelson helped me to fetch mr chong to the bus station,
with jyh pei as well...
after that jyh pei said he's going to sg wang later,
and asked me if i would wna join them...
at first i was like, nah,
no mood after the interview,
but then, i asked him to call me before he leaves...

so i wait,
and wait,
did my laundry,
took my nap,
still wondering whether to go or not...

until when i have my mood back a bit,
annie also asked me whether to go for movie or not,
she wants to watch alice in the wonderland,
and i said OK! wait for jyh pei to call first...
it turns up to be, NO CALL...
and nelson told me he's going out soon...
i was like... ME?
i told annie bout it,
she said she's gonna read geisha for the rest of the night,
tuut....

emo back again,
dun wna join them already,
ish ish...

even they called i was like,
u guys go la, i dun wna go,
i dun wna rush and stuff...
i'm going to gym alone,
i wna be alone,
then i off my handphone...
ahaha... just like some kido did last time...

so i went to gym alone,
talk alone,
plan to eat alone,
FEELS SO WEIRD!!
conclusion is i cant be alone,
=.= i turn on my hp after i finished work out,
and receive lots of sms, =P
now he knows how it feels when u cant find someone...

and then i found that problems happened again between nelson, wilson and jyh pei,
same old problems,
lame arguments....
wilson left early cuz of some reason,
like he always do... zzzz...
nelson and jyh pei argue again,
for some lame reasons again... zzzzz...

didnt get to try to eat dinner alone,
thanks to wilson, ahaha...
counselling sessions again for 3 of them,
1st for wilson when having dinner,
2nd for nelson and jyhpei after that...

finally get to play pool again,
since penguin and hansen is not around i did not have the chance to play,
luckily wilson can play a bit,
haha...

tomorrow will be our last briefing,
wonder what's gonna happen next?

迷路啦，怎办？

最近都不懂搞什么，
心情上下，很复杂，
已经没有力气想该怎么办了，
也许我永远都只能是个不平衡的秤吧。

或许我从来都没变过吧？
虽然尝试改变过，
以为已经改变过，
不过好像到目前为止，
我还是那个老样吧。

心灵上的累，
不知从何几时累计着，
虽然考试过了，放假了，
为什么肩膀还是觉得很重？

也许把自己关起来几天，
应该会比较好过？

是不是不该那么投入？
才不会受伤害？
怎么自我保护的方式，
永远都是那么自私的？

不管别人说什么，
听听就好。
很熟悉吧？=P

还有还有，
眼睛快瞎了，
再不看医生的话真的会恶化吧。
红红的，
隐形眼镜都不敢戴了，
怎么见人？？

心情日记好EMO啦，
奇怪到要死。

austin chase!

FINALLY IT ENDS!
although it didnt end up pretty good,
but i think i'm still ok with it,
hahaha...
just like what i had expected,
im not gonna be real sad even if i fail this time,
ahaha...




finally get to relax without thinking of assignments,
i didnt get enough sleep,
didnt get to eat in time,
didnt get to play much,
didnt even had time to meet friends...
tuut...




so after we passed up our final work today,
we went to wangsa walk mall to have lunch,
but after that we hang out there quite a long time,
bought some new clothes from FOS,
i kinda like my banana slug t-shirt,
haha...
after that luppy feel hungry again,
that's y we end up taking photos in austin chase,
lol...




the cake was really good,
i mean, real good!
it's worth for how it cost la,
but im not used to coffee,
eee, so so bitter...
i put like, 3 packets of sugar in my cup,
but still it's a bit bitter!!



it's like what i expected,
spend long time taking photos and acting in that coffee shop,
hahaha...
post loads of them in facebook!
i like the ambient and mood in there,
relaxing, no tension, not much to worry about...



well, holiday just started today,
but we're gonna have new briefing next monday,
crazy id department! eee!!!
er... "we need to breathe even we hang up ourselves!"

so tired today, but happy...
midterm of sem4,
honestly its a waste of time for me,
what to do when u're tought by a lecturer who could leave the class just to ride on his friend's ferrari?
tuut...

oh yea, since i never blog for the past few weeks,
there's something new happened in town!
ahaha...

1st
we had a new member here!!
nelson's cousin- wilson!!
*applause*
he's a giraffe n he likes white coffin!
tuut...

2nd
aijia's new baby boy is born!!
he looks gorgeous!!!
o.o i wonder how would it be to be somebody's mom,
holding your own kid...
gratz jia!!

3rd
oh yea,
i saw myfm DJ lum tuck weng pass by us in wangsa walk mall,
didnt feel anything special also actually,
just feel like he looks diff in real person,
tuut!
he's gonna be there again next sat...

4th
i'm happy :]

cheer up people!
tmr is always gonna be another today...

以前以後

以前以後

曲：金大洲
詞：姚若龍

本來總是牽著的手
現在怎麼各自寂寞
你在抽完菸後 還要忙什麼

本來總是浪漫幟熱
現在怎麼被動冷漠
你的心裡是否 還剩下溫柔

假如我提的每個夢 你都覺得沉重WOOH~
我還能夠做什麼 是放手或淚流

以前說的不是這種以後
快樂不該變得像彩虹
都要讓大雨淋過 才短暫擁有
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網

以前要得不是這種以後
感動被生活輾過
愛情 就磨成了寂寞

以前說的不是這種以後
心事不該窒息的鎖著
相愛也不該變成 互相痛快的指責

以前要的不是這種以後
看幸福慢慢褪色
愛你 值得不值得

**somehow addicted to this song~

还是你想太多？

如果每个朋友我都把他们尝试当知己，
那我既不是很忙？

也许我以前真的以为，
自己真的已经遇到自己身边比较重要的些人，
以为可以把你们更重视些，
虽然不是每一个都认同于我的看法，
但至少有些对我同以对待，
但有些，
把我当那种自找烦恼的某些人吧。

也许真的没说错吧，
把时间花在你身上真的是自找烦恼，
因为你根本就把我当成所谓的路人，
以后各有各的事要顾虑，
这些路过的朋友，
过了就算了吧。





失望。

朋友？知己？到头来，也许只是回忆。

对啊，
人终究需要离别，
朋友也不可能会有一辈子的，
等你以后出了社会，
等你以后组织了自己的家庭，
自己本身的烦恼都那么多了，
哪还能像以前那样一起玩乐复癫？

不过我相信，
就算知道总有离别的一天，
也许友情还是能维持至你想象不到的日子，
只是读书期间就完了？
还是到做工期间？
或是到你老了？
也许你可能没想到，
你身边的某个朋友也许能够陪伴你到你的最后一口气？

那如果早就知道我们会离别，
难道现在就不用心交朋友，
不用成为什么知己，
反正以后他走他的，
我走我的，
现在维持同学关系不就好嘛？
干嘛要为他们的问题自找烦恼？

那如果我知道我公司以后会倒闭，
不如现在就不做工，
反正以后倒闭了还不是一样会失业？

如果我知道我老公总有一天会死去，
那不如现在不要结婚，
还可以剩回结婚开支？

什么道理嘛？对不？

所以嘛，
朋友虽然会离开，
老公虽然有天会离我而去，
但至少我们曾一起奋斗，
一起烦恼过，
一起疯癫过，
一起创造回忆过，
可以说是你人生中不可缺少的话剧吧。

为什么会有回忆？
人终会有一段过去吧，
只看你要把它变成一个美好回忆，
还是一尘不变平凡的回忆而已。

为什么会写这些？
因为觉得你也许拿出心来交朋友，
他们未必会如你所愿，
但至少我曾经试过，
失败不代表结局吧。

好像用华语比较能表达这种抽象的部落格~
TUUT！

i'm coming for ya CNY!

had been a good day for today,
hahaha...
met Bong today,
happy to see her again since she's studying at Kampar,
she's having sem break now only we had the chance to meet...

been learning a lot of new things day to day,
i've been told that i'm like a flower in a greenhouse,
sheltered and protected...
didnt get the chance to meet people outside,
to see how realistic this world could be,
even listening to people's stories of their personal experience freak me out,
but it's really what happened outside,
and its not the worst...
tuut...
i believe that i've made the right choice for myself...

after that went to meet my mom and sisters at kepong jusco,
went there to try to shop something for CNY,
glad that i bought a pair of skinny from SUB,
still cant get the top one!!
tuut...



then my eldest sister Jamy asked me,
"i'm going to saloon with my friend later, u wanna come?"
actually i planned to straighten my hair after CNY,
since it's so expensive now why not wait for few more weeks,
need to save some money tho,
ahhaha...
so i said if the price is in my budget then i'll do it...
off we go to the saloon...



and it's really in my expectation,
not more than rm100,
yeay! so i'm like let's do it now!
but poor those people who work there,
have to work over time cuz it takes time to straighten my hair,
sorry guys, peak season eh?
i found this saloon not bad,
it's located at kepong,
called the xuan saloon something...
friendly staffs...

that's why i said that it was smooth today,
nothing went wrong,
lucky day for me i guess,
haha...
nobody's at home,
except for me and ah ba,
tuut...

gonna watch another disney's old cartoon later,
see ya!

hmmm... too much to blog!?

woa... its like everything's pile up and i have to throw it out all in this blog!
been a lot of activities for myself,
after class sure is another enjoyment!



last wed went out with the juniors,
they're just as crazy as us!
cant stop laughing,
and they are really loud and funny!!
we took almost 100 over pictures just for that few hours,
its really crazy!!!
went for kareoke with them,
sang all those funny CNY songs again!!
plus the CNY version poker face!
XD oh my god.....



even when we're having dinner at toilet t-bowl restaurant is also hilarious,
we doesnt really care how ppl see us,
we just do whatever we want,
noisy bunch of us!



this t-bowl restaurant was opened recently in sungai wang 3rd floor if not mistaken,
last time we went once at penang with jyh pei,
this time he wasnt with us,
too bad...
but it's still the same,
toilet theme restaurant with toilet bowl seats and bathtub table,
fun place to hang out sometimes...


it's been ages ago since i took sitcker photos,
this time with all of them,
jyh pei ah! you should have come!!
it's quite chaotic when we're taking photo,
switching places and posing in that small space,
while it has time limit!
AHHHH!! CHANGE!!!
I WNA GO UP!! YOUR TURN TO STAND BELOW!!
lol... end up we're all like monkeys in a cage...



that day end up everyone's tired...
reach home almost at 10pm...
GOOD ONE JUNIORS!
I CAN SEE YOUR POTENTIAL OF BEING BAICHILIZATION PEOPLE!



tuuut...
it was a day without luppy...
SO NOT USED TO IT!
everyone is doing con draw at classroom,
some at computer lab...
me and annie went to buy ice-cream for a break,
and we're like...
why MIA doesnt have some place for students to relax?
we're like sitting beside the corridor...



then suddenly i thought of the juniors,
they took photos at the roof top of MIA...
so i was like, "roof top?"
then annie said "lets go then!"
lol... so we went up to the entrance to the roof top,
it's quite hard to push the steel cover which leads to the roof top,
but i kinda push it hard!
yup we did it!



so me and annie found a nice spot to look at the view from top,
it was windy and we're enjoying our ice-cream,
talking bout some things we used to share,
hahaha...
enjoy the feel,
although it's kinda rusty up there,
but at least it became another new place to hang out i guess...



that night was the Haiti Charity Pop Concert,
organized by music department...
at first i thought a lot of us are coming to watch,
but end up it was only few of us,
o.o everyone stay up late tho...



envy students from music department,
they always seem happy,
specially when they're performing,
envy envy envy!
i should have joined them too,
study music...
ARGH!!
but i will,
at least before i die,
hahaha...
i want music to be part of my life,
i will continue music course after this,
if i have the ability to support on my own,
don't wna make my parents worry bout my future life because of the decision i made,
love you dad and mom...




last few days we joined the competition organized by the click clack club,
which is the couple photoshooting competition,
that day me and ken wore the same pattern of shirt,
so we decide to participate and give it a try,
so were annie and luppy!
i didnt manage to get their photo,
chor leng only upload one photo in her facebook for me to save,
aha...



and then we got the fifth place,
and was rewarded with this very cute camera they made,
thanks to click clack club,
Luppy and Annie took the 4th place,
haha...
Chor leng invited me to sekinchan as well
weh!! u guys(5 of u all) on or not?!



finally reached the last part to blog,
PHEW!!
today went dinner with annie and mr chong,
the others ffk me... tuut!
we went one of the steamboat restaurant at kepong,
and it's per head charge so u can eat as much as u can,
and there's BBQ and steamboat together..
annie and mr chong did a good cook in grilling,
and i only have to wait and eat,
ahahaha!



but it really killed us cuz we're so so full!!
it's really a lot of food for the 3 of us!
but it's kinda lonely without u guys,
aiks...
u guys should have come!!



fianlly end up my blog at 2.47am...
wow!
i spend for almost an hour for this blog,
crazy geh...
hahaha!