tuut

this new year its like,
too much things going on...
i've tried to break through myself,
but i'm sorry too cuz i drag you in this,
which makes you so unhappy...

no worries,
no matter how is it,
i'll try my best to learn,
only do for the way i feel that it's right,
at least i'll help you to get back the cost you've gave out...

perhaps different people has different thinking,
for some reasons i think that some ways people do it doesnt match with our thoughts,
which makes us doubt by involving ourselves in this,
however,
the only thing i must tell myself,
the reason i do this its for my family,
and i hope u'll understand,
the day i decide to let you know what am i doing,
it's not that i want to take anything from you,
it's because i trust you...
and i felt guilty that you're so so depressed about it...

no worries,
i'll pratice more,
i'll do my best...

again,
forgive me...

love ya!

it isnt over?

its been a harsh day today,
lots of problems for myself,
and heard a really shocking news,
i thought it was the end,
but i never thought that it's running all behind the scene for all these sems,
err... what can i say?
for us its like "IT'S OVER!"
but for somebody else, its like,
revenge =.=
and its like advertising company,
now who's the one who brought it up??
chhh...

i believe that someday people might know,
and now it's really starting...
people really know!
please la...
you've got it all dont ya?
we had already put this things away,
but why??
for a moment i thought that
"hey let's be friends again?"
but now i can see for myself...
kinda dissapointed,
and i blame myself for being too naive...

aha!
never think too much of it,
go ahead,
do whatever you wna do...
im tired of it...

still long way to go...

well it end up that it wasnt as easy as i thought,
doesnt mean that u think u can then u can make it,
doesnt mean that people u think that understands u really understands u,
i was wrong,
but i learnt from mistake,
i know that i can break through...

but somehow it's hard for me,
for i cant really share my feelings with people,
but i manage to found some,
thanks for them who is willing to listen...
i won't give up,
for my dreams,
for my family...
struggle hard!

and i hate myself for being a cry baby since when i was born,
mom n dad complain that i cried till the whole neighbourhood recognise my crying when i was a baby,
urgh,
genetically from my mom,
she used to b a cry baby too! XD
tears just come out whenever they want,
in a huge huge amount of it,
tuut...
cant make it stop easily...
but it really affects my image,
for being a... manly crying girl... ??

id as well, struggle hard!
im half way to it!!!
so many things!
i must repay before the end of the day!
which might be 2012!!

tuut...
hope to work hard with my partner as well,
forgive me for making mistake...
bye...

GeoWood...

finally bought the geowood from jern's stall,
haha... although thr's no name on it,
but also bought some to support support...



im giving it all to my bro and sis,
my eldest sis took the blue pig one,
XD it kinda look like her...



today went to a mall,
we kinda lost at bangsar area,
plus traffic jam...
plus me and annie are starving!!
not good not good,
im gonna be flabby...

after that went to gym for training session,
really tired,
dont feel like talking also,
but still,
after that i got my mood back,
reach home still have to do homework ah,
ish ish...

AIKS!
i must be more hardworking,
i know what is my aim...
gah yao ah!

Puppet from graphic~

Graphic department are doing marketing sales this week,
most of them need support so,
i just bought one for me,
which i kinda like it!



it's a bit expensive for me la,
but nevermind la,
they wrote my name on it too...
so i guess there's a little value in it,
its handmade as well!!
should really support them...
i'm still waiting for jern's geowood,
dunno she'll write my name on it or not...
=.=



Nelson bought this octopus from geo wood,
its kinda special cuz it has it's own fragrant...
im not sure what kind of wood is it,
but they really did a great job in modifying them,
should hv took more pictures,
but u guys can browse through in facbook...



today is kinda crazy day,
6 of us laugh in and out,
this luppy made annie angry today,
kaka...
after tonight will be okay de la,
i'm sure bout it...




we had lunch at wangsa walk mall's little wok kitchen,
for lunch time promotion its kinda cheap,
and the food is so far better than most of the restaurants in wangsa walk mall,
for me i prefer this and popeye only... tuut

night time went to sri rampai for dinner,
annie introduce us to this restaurant called "lao zhao pai"
i like the environment there,
relaxing...
after dinner we took pics in a special corner,
which they designed to look like the 80's...
they would have post some pics in facebook later,
check it out...

o.O argues...

today its kinda... like...
not going so well,
cuz of emotions making trouble,
i kinda argue with luppy,
tuut...

but i'm really,
seriously,
dont want it to happen,
yes i'm still afraid that im doing the same mistake,
but im trying to solve my problems,
and im still trying to get over it,
but sometimes when this kind of things happen,
its hard for me to not trying to relate things together,
i'll still relate my previous feelings and mistakes together with this,
after all the problem links...
i dont know how,
maybe i still did not do it in the right way,
plus, i need some time to make things go right,
i hope you understand,
after all i just dont want anything to affect us...

i'm still, not a perfect friend to be,
but i show emotions cause i really do care about how you guys think about me,
for what i did maybe i really didnt realise,
i always thought in the way u guys dont really think...
but still...
i'm sorry....

yet,
today is a busy day,
watched "da ri zi" at cinema,
quite nice la the show,
funny and kinda touching also,
keke...

busy and tired,
tomorrow stuggle for homework,
now sleep!
AHHH...

gd nite...

whole day outing!!

well we have class since 9am this morning...
actually we had a date with mr chong after class,
we planned to go cheong k...
but at first its only the 4 of us,
mr chong plus me plus annie and luppy...

the rest??
at first ask them they dont wna go,
but at last class ended early today,
so they decided to follow us at last,
haha!!

but still its the 4 of us went for kareoke,
and the others went shopping around...
although its just only 4 of us,
but we really laugh our heads off!!
with luppy around,
there's no reason that u wouldnt laugh!

we sang chinese new year songs,
which was really loud and noisy!!
usually went i was walking around those malls,
i didnt really enjoy listening to CNY song,
first its kinda noisy,
and they used to sing the same song since last 10 years...
but for kareoke its kinda fun,
cause CNY is coming soon,
we'll only get to sing those songs like once or twice a year?
so just give it all!!! gong xi gong xi!!

after that we went to have dinner at tin yuen steamboat,
the porridge we used to eat last time,
penguin joined us,
he had plans after dinner,
spend time with us while waiting for someone to fetch him...

well...
actually this week its kinda hard for me,
i'm still trying to make myself to be a better me...
forgiveness was given but maybe myself i felt guilty...
for what i had done without realise that i actually hurt other ppl's feeling...
ahhh, people made mistakes, although u didnt really mean it,
but still, its a mistake...

maybe it wasnt the right way for me to over react,
haha...
talk like my mom doesnt really help tho,
ahaha, tuuut....

im glad that those awkwardness was gone,
all of us seems to came back where we used to be...
i hope that there wont be any problems although it couldnt be evade...

anyway... its a tired day today,
but i enjoyed...
im happy!!!
and i finally get my voice back again!!
hahahaha...

really tired,
need to get some rest,
goodbye...

o.o pork intestine!!

after class i went to look for my dad,
to send pajero for service...
once we reach there it was almost 6pm,
so the mechanic told us that we have to leave pajero there for at least one day,
o.o cant go out tonight!
tmr have to ask luppy to fetch me to college,
tuut...

after that my dad took me to akleh's "wai sek gai",
i always like the food there,
its always nice!!
my dad used to buy food there for us,
as well as today,
he bought some back to ulu yam too...

today i tried something new,
which i don't really dare to eat last time,
um... in chinese its called "猪杂汤"
um... which means a soup with all those pig organs and stuff...

at first i didnt bother,
just ate what i had...
then my dad asked me
"dare to try or not?"
"errr... no..."
"try la, this place is so far the best one i tried..."

and i saw my dad ate,
looks nice...
so i tried the soup,
nice...

"whats that?" "pig tongue."
okay, pig's tongue! but i did tried!
it taste just like pork...

"that white thing?" "pig intestine."
i used to try once before at somewhere else,
but i didnt manage to swallow...
but this one, i tried...
ok wo...

"try this one." "no!"
it's pig's blood, how could i!?
"it taste just like those jelly..."
huh... really?
i just took a small piece of it,
and i ate it....
...
.....
..........
it really taste like jelly,
not as horrible as i thought,
haha!!



(forgot to took picture of it, but this pic is similar to what i eat)


and finally,
i agree with my dad,
its really the best one so far... XD
i kinda like it!!

tuut...
bought some food for my housemate as well,
plus chicken wing!!!
have to control my diet!
tuut!!!

today have to finish con draw,
see ya!

so sad...

i've never seen things like this before...
when i'm on the way fetching jyh pei home,
we're shocked to see that a girl was standing in the middle of the road,
under the hot sun,
and she was just starring at one direction...
at first we were like,
what is she doing out there??

but then the sad thing is,
once we Uturn and dropped jyh pei,
i drove and we passed by that girl again,
this time we saw her from the front,
even more shocked!
she was pregnant!!
and i guess she's almost at the time to deliver...

that time me and annie were thinking,
did her boyfriend or husband broke up with her?
or she's having depression or so called melancholia before childbirth...?
where is her family?
why is she alone in the middle of the road...
i pity her...
hope she's okay...

annie finally had her braces on,
of course the first day she'll feel uncomfortable,
cant chew or bite...
nevermind,
she'll get through it...
heard that she's starting a blog as well!
so as ken... good for u 2!
haha... at least i have more stories to read now...

tomorrow we're having class replacement,
gonna be a busy month for me...
tuut!
hope i can catch up for this project...

bye!

total miss out...

um... last blog i stop at...
gym for last week?!
woa i havent update it for almost a week...

yesterday i went to meet 3 of my form 6 friends,
sau wei, yuen mei and khong...
although i had only studied there for 2 month plus before i came to MIA,
i had great times with them....
specially sau wei and yuen mei,
we're always laughing in class...
khong is one of my NS friend as well,
never thought that we would be classmate...
haha... i hope to meet u guys again,
well most of them went back to their hometown,
if would have graduate as well if i continue studying with them,
but this is what i choose,
so... never regret!
at least i met them...
i'm happy to know them!

today was kinda scary,
first it happend when i was driving back from ulu yam to setapak,
along with my housemate ming juan...
it was raining so heavily on the way,
i was kinda worry,
cause of the previous accident...

this time i never thought that this car would lose control again,
well it's not really as serious as last time,
cause i want to turn left so i slow down,
but i guess i over hit the brake too hard,
till the car kinda lose control,
this time i know what to do,
i just took my foot off the pedal,
and the car went back normal,
dangerous but i'm fine!
but didnt manage to turn left to the shortcut...
steady!!

this evening penguin came to visit us,
so 2 of us went for dinner with zuo, yan and lewis...
after that we went to CC for L4D2,
its kinda fun,
but its harder than i expected!

after that i fetched penguin back to cheras,
he told me the way back,
but i guess i was thinking of something else when i was driving,
end up i turn into the wrong junction....
and then i look around as i drive,
it doesnt look like the way i came just now!

then i tried to find Uturn,
end up i drove into some dark place,
not many cars,
i'm not sure about how to find the way back out to the highway,
pathway that i choose leads me to a quiet train station!!
after that i found that im at sri petaling,
the road which my dad always drove when im still a kid!
finally i called my dad for help,
and that's when i saw the klcc sign..
so i just follow all the way up to klcc back to setapak,
phew!
luckily i manage to came back,
it was already 11pm when i reach home,
it was a tired day!!

even more tired today~

i realise that going to gym after class is not really a good thing,
during ABT class was still okay,
just feel soar a bit,
but then after ABT i went for yoga,
suddenly felt very sleepy,
cannot hold my position steadily,
and i keep on yawning!!

so then it was cool down time,
the instructor would just ask us to lie down and relax,
and i fell asleep!!
ish!! luckily i woke up in the right time,
they're still lying in the same position...
i guess i'll just have to pick days with less hour of class in coll...
still wna continue work out!

today i met Brian before i went to gym,
i didnt realise it was him until he called my name,
its not that he changed a lot,
its just that i didnt realised it was him in formal wearing...
did a little chat with him,
well hope he'll get better soon!!
tuut tuut!

and i saw one of my lecturer in the gym!
i'm kinda suprised to see her there,
when i'm still thinking of should i greet her or wave or pretend not to see,
she turn left and walk into the yoga studio,
wooo...
she's kinda stressed out too eh?
keke...

today i felt that im so short,
cause coery is standing beside me...
coery is one of the instructor in that gym,
which is really really tall,
i think she's almost the height of hansen,
or maybe taller!
cuz when she stand beside me,
she's like one head taller than me...
any secrets?
i wna grow 5 more centimeters...

should have finish old assignment today,
now im more into this new project with mr sun,
since mr khairul dun really wna bother bout us anymore...
i thought he was okay but he really wasnt that thoughtful,
haha...
nevermind la,
as long as i manage to pass sem4 then should b fine!

that's all,
tml is gonna be another hectic day with mr k,
tuut...

night!

happy birthday old sis!!

she's happy im sure,
for what her hometown friends had did for her,
from kl drive back to ulu yam and fetch the others back to kl again,
just to celebrate her birthday!
poor her friend have to fetch them back ulu yam and come back kl again after that!
what a great friend she had!!!



of course im great also,
because of her i gave up of going to yum cha,
and went out to search for birthday cake cuz of the sudden celebration!
it's almost 10pm,
luckily we found one cake shop which is still open!



so her friends reach at 11pm a guess,
she was sleeping in the room,
so we decide to go into her room and wake her up with the cake,
but then once we turn off the fan ( so that the candle wont be blown off)
and she felt hot, and woke up!
=.= then she saw candle light from the inside...



but what she didnt expect is she never thought that her hometown friends will come,
she thought it was only housemates,
so when she went out she only saw our housemates,
then all of a sudden her friend pop out from the toilet with the cake!
(2 rooms are attached to 1 toilet)
haha...
she's suprised...



my family decide to buy her guinea pigs,
since she want it so badly...
haha....
so yesterday after i fetch pei pei back to her school,
then i went to wangsa walk mall's pet shop,
i'm so lucky cause they're doing promotion for the last day i went there,
get some discounts of course...
but too bad the guinea pigs were sold out,
so i only bought the cage and some other stuff...
i leave my hp number for the staff,
so they can contact me once there's guinea pig for sale...



my housemates bought cosmetic for my sis,
which she likes it a lot,
and always needed it a lot!!
good for her!

happy birthday ling ling,
22 years old!
older again!!
and im gonna be 20 soon!

tuut...
night...

first day class cancel...

lol...
luckily i havent step out from my house yet,
i received sms telling that class had been cancel,
i dont know its a good thing or not,
cuz after that i cant really get back to sleep!!

went to gym at around 2pm...
making myself sweat really feels good,
which i never thought about it last time,
when i never exercise at all...
hard bones ah chua...

after that went to ken's place to do id,
aih... really dont feel like doing it lor,
but i heard that that they changed our lecturer,
mr khairul will no longer teach us anymore,
haha...
i wonder how is mr soon gonna be??
but this project its really like,
=,= i hope it doesnt pull back my marks too much...

after that went for dinner with annie, ken, jyhpei and san hui,
i took them to sri rampai,
thanks to fleeve,
im like going there few times already,
first time with fleeve,
2nd time with my sis, hui san and penguin,
and today with my mia friends...

and yet,
ppl complaining me for not updating my blog for this holiday,
well i did update some,
now i wrote one for today too,
hahahaha...
no more complains ha!

having class from tuesday to saturday for half of this sem,
u thought its gonna be another 8 weeks till next holiday,
but plus CNY holiday its gonna be 9 weeks till next sem break!
i must be tough to go through sem 4!!

SHOOT...
left my hp in the car,
ish...
going to take it back now,
see ya!!

new year -2010-

well im gonna reach 20,
that's the first thing went through my mind when i thought about 2010...
new year new life?
im sure that this year will be better...




this pic was taken last year,
well actually it was just few weeks ago,
the time i went for kareoke with my sis and housmates...
somebody made a joke for that sign,
but i kinda like it...
"no ghost allowed?" i dno... XD



this new year,
as usual,
we went to celebrate it in genting...
same old things we did,
its kinda like a gathering for me,
cuz all of us were there...
we stayed at the old creepy amber court again...
went for new year countdown in front of genting hotel...



after fireworks,
i really had to be prepared,
fight for 2010 again!
and its 2 more years to the end of the world!!!
wahahahaha....
suddenly miss those friends that lived far away,
banana, alvin, sid, etc etc...
god bless u all...




happy new year people,
gonna start class tomorrow,
and im still blogging to no whr here?
start to do homework again,
aiks!

good night~