以前以後

以前以後

曲：金大洲
詞：姚若龍

本來總是牽著的手
現在怎麼各自寂寞
你在抽完菸後 還要忙什麼

本來總是浪漫幟熱
現在怎麼被動冷漠
你的心裡是否 還剩下溫柔

假如我提的每個夢 你都覺得沉重WOOH~
我還能夠做什麼 是放手或淚流

以前說的不是這種以後
快樂不該變得像彩虹
都要讓大雨淋過 才短暫擁有
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網

以前要得不是這種以後
感動被生活輾過
愛情 就磨成了寂寞

以前說的不是這種以後
心事不該窒息的鎖著
相愛也不該變成 互相痛快的指責

以前要的不是這種以後
看幸福慢慢褪色
愛你 值得不值得

**somehow addicted to this song~

还是你想太多？

如果每个朋友我都把他们尝试当知己，
那我既不是很忙？

也许我以前真的以为，
自己真的已经遇到自己身边比较重要的些人，
以为可以把你们更重视些，
虽然不是每一个都认同于我的看法，
但至少有些对我同以对待，
但有些，
把我当那种自找烦恼的某些人吧。

也许真的没说错吧，
把时间花在你身上真的是自找烦恼，
因为你根本就把我当成所谓的路人，
以后各有各的事要顾虑，
这些路过的朋友，
过了就算了吧。





失望。

朋友？知己？到头来，也许只是回忆。

对啊，
人终究需要离别，
朋友也不可能会有一辈子的，
等你以后出了社会，
等你以后组织了自己的家庭，
自己本身的烦恼都那么多了，
哪还能像以前那样一起玩乐复癫？

不过我相信，
就算知道总有离别的一天，
也许友情还是能维持至你想象不到的日子，
只是读书期间就完了？
还是到做工期间？
或是到你老了？
也许你可能没想到，
你身边的某个朋友也许能够陪伴你到你的最后一口气？

那如果早就知道我们会离别，
难道现在就不用心交朋友，
不用成为什么知己，
反正以后他走他的，
我走我的，
现在维持同学关系不就好嘛？
干嘛要为他们的问题自找烦恼？

那如果我知道我公司以后会倒闭，
不如现在就不做工，
反正以后倒闭了还不是一样会失业？

如果我知道我老公总有一天会死去，
那不如现在不要结婚，
还可以剩回结婚开支？

什么道理嘛？对不？

所以嘛，
朋友虽然会离开，
老公虽然有天会离我而去，
但至少我们曾一起奋斗，
一起烦恼过，
一起疯癫过，
一起创造回忆过，
可以说是你人生中不可缺少的话剧吧。

为什么会有回忆？
人终会有一段过去吧，
只看你要把它变成一个美好回忆，
还是一尘不变平凡的回忆而已。

为什么会写这些？
因为觉得你也许拿出心来交朋友，
他们未必会如你所愿，
但至少我曾经试过，
失败不代表结局吧。

好像用华语比较能表达这种抽象的部落格~
TUUT！

i'm coming for ya CNY!

had been a good day for today,
hahaha...
met Bong today,
happy to see her again since she's studying at Kampar,
she's having sem break now only we had the chance to meet...

been learning a lot of new things day to day,
i've been told that i'm like a flower in a greenhouse,
sheltered and protected...
didnt get the chance to meet people outside,
to see how realistic this world could be,
even listening to people's stories of their personal experience freak me out,
but it's really what happened outside,
and its not the worst...
tuut...
i believe that i've made the right choice for myself...

after that went to meet my mom and sisters at kepong jusco,
went there to try to shop something for CNY,
glad that i bought a pair of skinny from SUB,
still cant get the top one!!
tuut...



then my eldest sister Jamy asked me,
"i'm going to saloon with my friend later, u wanna come?"
actually i planned to straighten my hair after CNY,
since it's so expensive now why not wait for few more weeks,
need to save some money tho,
ahhaha...
so i said if the price is in my budget then i'll do it...
off we go to the saloon...



and it's really in my expectation,
not more than rm100,
yeay! so i'm like let's do it now!
but poor those people who work there,
have to work over time cuz it takes time to straighten my hair,
sorry guys, peak season eh?
i found this saloon not bad,
it's located at kepong,
called the xuan saloon something...
friendly staffs...

that's why i said that it was smooth today,
nothing went wrong,
lucky day for me i guess,
haha...
nobody's at home,
except for me and ah ba,
tuut...

gonna watch another disney's old cartoon later,
see ya!

hmmm... too much to blog!?

woa... its like everything's pile up and i have to throw it out all in this blog!
been a lot of activities for myself,
after class sure is another enjoyment!



last wed went out with the juniors,
they're just as crazy as us!
cant stop laughing,
and they are really loud and funny!!
we took almost 100 over pictures just for that few hours,
its really crazy!!!
went for kareoke with them,
sang all those funny CNY songs again!!
plus the CNY version poker face!
XD oh my god.....



even when we're having dinner at toilet t-bowl restaurant is also hilarious,
we doesnt really care how ppl see us,
we just do whatever we want,
noisy bunch of us!



this t-bowl restaurant was opened recently in sungai wang 3rd floor if not mistaken,
last time we went once at penang with jyh pei,
this time he wasnt with us,
too bad...
but it's still the same,
toilet theme restaurant with toilet bowl seats and bathtub table,
fun place to hang out sometimes...


it's been ages ago since i took sitcker photos,
this time with all of them,
jyh pei ah! you should have come!!
it's quite chaotic when we're taking photo,
switching places and posing in that small space,
while it has time limit!
AHHHH!! CHANGE!!!
I WNA GO UP!! YOUR TURN TO STAND BELOW!!
lol... end up we're all like monkeys in a cage...



that day end up everyone's tired...
reach home almost at 10pm...
GOOD ONE JUNIORS!
I CAN SEE YOUR POTENTIAL OF BEING BAICHILIZATION PEOPLE!



tuuut...
it was a day without luppy...
SO NOT USED TO IT!
everyone is doing con draw at classroom,
some at computer lab...
me and annie went to buy ice-cream for a break,
and we're like...
why MIA doesnt have some place for students to relax?
we're like sitting beside the corridor...



then suddenly i thought of the juniors,
they took photos at the roof top of MIA...
so i was like, "roof top?"
then annie said "lets go then!"
lol... so we went up to the entrance to the roof top,
it's quite hard to push the steel cover which leads to the roof top,
but i kinda push it hard!
yup we did it!



so me and annie found a nice spot to look at the view from top,
it was windy and we're enjoying our ice-cream,
talking bout some things we used to share,
hahaha...
enjoy the feel,
although it's kinda rusty up there,
but at least it became another new place to hang out i guess...



that night was the Haiti Charity Pop Concert,
organized by music department...
at first i thought a lot of us are coming to watch,
but end up it was only few of us,
o.o everyone stay up late tho...



envy students from music department,
they always seem happy,
specially when they're performing,
envy envy envy!
i should have joined them too,
study music...
ARGH!!
but i will,
at least before i die,
hahaha...
i want music to be part of my life,
i will continue music course after this,
if i have the ability to support on my own,
don't wna make my parents worry bout my future life because of the decision i made,
love you dad and mom...




last few days we joined the competition organized by the click clack club,
which is the couple photoshooting competition,
that day me and ken wore the same pattern of shirt,
so we decide to participate and give it a try,
so were annie and luppy!
i didnt manage to get their photo,
chor leng only upload one photo in her facebook for me to save,
aha...



and then we got the fifth place,
and was rewarded with this very cute camera they made,
thanks to click clack club,
Luppy and Annie took the 4th place,
haha...
Chor leng invited me to sekinchan as well
weh!! u guys(5 of u all) on or not?!



finally reached the last part to blog,
PHEW!!
today went dinner with annie and mr chong,
the others ffk me... tuut!
we went one of the steamboat restaurant at kepong,
and it's per head charge so u can eat as much as u can,
and there's BBQ and steamboat together..
annie and mr chong did a good cook in grilling,
and i only have to wait and eat,
ahahaha!



but it really killed us cuz we're so so full!!
it's really a lot of food for the 3 of us!
but it's kinda lonely without u guys,
aiks...
u guys should have come!!



fianlly end up my blog at 2.47am...
wow!
i spend for almost an hour for this blog,
crazy geh...
hahaha!

也许

往往有许多事情，
都没有想过会发生在自己身上，
或自己身边的人，
无可奈何，
自己顾不得那么多。

讨厌自己不会隐藏，
什么都能够不假思索表露出来，
别人也无可奈何，
他们也顾不得我那么多。

以为自己是坚强的，
其实只有表面上的刚强吧。

有时候，
真的会尝试着放空自己，
想要让自己有避开现实的空间，
就算只有那一秒也好，
可是我做不到。

也许到最后，
觉得自己最需要的，
真的不过就是一个能依靠的肩膀嘛，
一个只需要听我苦诉的听众，
就这么简单，
却找不到。

以为自己遇上了生命中的角色，
其实可能只是个路人甲。

但我知道，
我在为身边所发生的事而蜕变中吧。

不喜欢自己自想太多，
不喜欢自己为其他人想太多，
不喜欢自己伪装，
可是如果没有了以上的所有，
又会是一个怎么样的我呢？

够了。

真的。

well done!!

its been a very long time since i get to enjoy the sight of chinese orchestra performance!
and i'm so proud of xiao teng!
YOU'RE SO SO FABULOUS!!
GREAT PERFORMANCE,
MUACK!!



i went to the performance with my parents and youngest sis,
since she's playing chinese instrument as well,
so she's really keen to watch them play~
met shongen and zhi pei on spot,
too bad annie couldnt make it,
she had to take care of her dog jojo,
who just came back from vet hospital if not mistaken...




enjoy the group performance,
and i found that they are really high grade and pro!
the ticket price shouldnt be that low!!
lol...
specially the one who played the flute and yangqin,
they're grauduate from some china music college if im not mistaken,
wonderful performance...



of course i wont miss the chance to take picture with our pretty xiao teng,
she joined the chinese instrument classes since she's form 3 till now,
and she's great in playing liu qin,
cool!!!
and i saw many types of other chinese instrument that i never see before,
and i didnt know that the pieces could be so harmony with tibet and india style in it,
of course there are also classical chinese music,
the one even my dad's knows how to sing it...
its called "平湖秋月"
nice one!!



it tooks about 2 hours for the whole performance,
everyone seems to be satisfied about it,
kaka...
this thursday is gonna be a charity concert for haiti victims,
also held by MIA music department,
cant wait to see them play,
haha!!