就这样，半年过去了

整整，过了半年，都没有上载新的部落格了。

一切都不一样了，

自由了，

毕业了，

头发剪短了，

变老了，

搬家了，

开始会保养了，

踏着社会的边缘了，

找着工作了，

还有...

总算看清了。

以前总以为，

自己什么都可以应付得到，

以前计划好的未来，

终究都只归于计划，

想要实际行动的那一刻，

才发现自己原来都还没有准备好去为未来冲刺.

才发现自己还不知道自己想要什么。

怎么办好呢？

要见步行步呢还是在从长计议？

以为找到了捷径，

反倒走进森林里迷路了！

前途

茫茫

blogger,,,

lately annie told me bout blogs and stuff,

and i did some research on it,

that blog can earn some tip but have to have consistant attrative content,

i thought it would be interesting if people would want to read my things,

so...

i think i'll start by trying to do something like...

the diary i wrote when i was in national service,

i think it will be a good start for me?

i will try to make it more pics, and less words,

i'll try to scan some of the pages of what i wrote,

it's alright that i could receive comments before i try to make a new blog just for this,

i've thought that the title would be related to...

something related of funny things of myself~

in college, or some other places....

aiya, hard to describe in here now,

u guys just wait for it to happen, so..

i'll try to scan and post up some of the stories i had in national service...

XD



will do more research base on the book

"the 150cm me"

GOODBYE 2010

WELCOME 2011!

Im still standing here, the same time inspiring others

sometimes i never thought that stories of mine would inspire others

would charge up others

would motivate others

thanks to my partner Jonny

you're always the friendly coach of mine

haha

I thought i cant stand it any longer

in fact im so clear that what i want

it's either i get to do what i'm interested without worries

or study for 5 years and come back Msia with better income

or do what i wanna do and die poor

i've just gonna make my choice

it's still my life anyway

im thankful that i'm still standing here

im thankful for those who stands beside me

im thankful for that cherry who always be there by my side

im thankful

when i realised!

tuut...
went for a cheated guitar lesson for 1 month,
but i did like the guitar teacher a lot,
Mr.J-son.

that month i was thinking,
i thought i would just quickly finish that guitar lesson in that centre and quickly ran off,
after all i thought that maybe i would only wna learn guitar for fun,
but after a long thought for myself,
i would really wanna involve myself in contemporary music,
*not classical dead ones*
but what makes myself to hold back is actually my own attitude,
which i only want me myself to support me in music
which makes me feel guilty all the time,
and mr Aw feels weird all the time...

he always says:
"you're thinking too much, just go for it!"
"no, it's expensive and i dont wna spend mum's money on it!"
"......"
".......... what?"
"go talk about it to your mum first!"

in fact my mum said,
"u like it? go for it la! i'll buy u a guitar as present"

=.= i know, i've been thinking a lot,
i know, i always wanted to be independent,
in fact i dont use money wisely all the time...

lol...
okay alright ohwell,
i'll just go for it i guess~

youngest sis is learning hew own,
so i wanna learn the basics steps one and continue to learn from mr J-son,
i would really hope that i could have a chance to visit my friend's studio sometimes,

^^ earn hard! play hard!

有你真好

如今

不再是我一个人在拼

不再是我一个人在扛

不再是我一个人在过

只因有你在

有你真好

以前的那一年

那时已经感受得到

只因自己还不确定

加上自己贪新鲜

很容易被新事物牵引掉

你仍然还在保持着沉默

默默付出

被你那份坚持有所感动

被你那份勇气有所打动

知道你的突破是不易而来

也知道多半是为了我吧? :)

往往到某些事情发生以后

在自己情绪最低落的时候

才察觉到自己真正的心情

但想到那时已经疏远的感觉

只好否定自己

不想复杂化了

曾有一阵子

没有勇气踏出那一步

害怕拥有而失去的那种感觉

宁愿维持着现状

在自己需要的时候期待能有你的出现

但现在已迎刃而解了吧？

有你真好

我是那么认为的

也许你太过了解了吧？

在你身上藏不到我的秘密

就算没表露

你却感受得到

至少我有你的支柱

接下来的日子

我不晓得以后会是怎么样

但至少我为了以后付出现在

体谅我为了梦想而奔拼的日子

幸亏有你

有你真好

Penang Trip

If people asked me

"what's the most memorable time with you and your coll friends?"

i would say,

the greatest unexpectable sudden planned trip to penang...

9 of us,

3 cars,

waste of petrol,

but it was worth it all...

penang!

balcony of our hotel

Its a tiring day for the first day actually,

as we drove all night until the morning,

it was amazing to see the sunrise from the car,

perfect colour scheme of yellow, blue and pink!

too bad my camera wasnt with me...

funny pose 1
funny pose 2 (etc)

we did enjoy quite a monent in our hotel after the nap~

kek lok si temple

we are the fans of guan yin ma~~~



persiaran gurney

coffee island cafe

must admit that its a nice place with

nice environment

nice food

nice music

nice wind

LOVE that place so so so much!

me eating my fillet plus the extremely delicious wasabi sauce!!
WOOO!!
i will go for the other time when i come back penang!




did spend some time in exploring DSLR camera,
took quite a lot of pictures with it,
feel like getting one for myself,
but its kinda over budget~
anyhow loved the feel of focusing the objects,
hope that i get the chance to improve my skills...


peranakan mansion

(the place where little nyonya was shooted)

the private temple the baba and nyonya used to have,

its gorgeous i could say,

and i love the place so much!

i personally like the angle of this piano being shooted,

thumbs up for ken!

cute chikins...

cute ba zang~~

fish spa

we went to queensbay mall for a walk,

suprisingly i wasnt afraid of fish anymore after this fish spa,

not like the other time when i was eaten by the 1 feet long fish in sabah...

Roy- horse

it was the first time riding horse by the beach,

it felt so.... ?? ?? not steady,

ann ann was suffering behind as her XXX hurts,

but i kinda enjoy it a lot,

it feels so classic to be on it!

batu ferringhi's beach

bought souvenirs



Penang bridge

i wont forget this days with you guys...

Annie

Luppy

Ken

Ann Ann

Khor

Nelson

Wenzi

Leong

these days will be the best memory of us...

WE LOVE BIN-NING!!

o.O again...

i wonder if my blog is gonna grow mushrooms someday,
my last update was in AUG! wow,
and its september ending coming to oct now...
XD elo people, sorry for the delay~

next monday we have to pass up our programming,
been wondering what's gonna happen on that day...
its been 8 weeks since our programming start,
and the result decides whether you're going sem 6 or just retake sem 5,
i dunno what to say,
seems... so... complicated to have this kind of feeling,
like u cared about it but in the same time u cant come out anything yet...

yesterday was strange,
i tried to went out alone,
taking lrt to klcc,
wanna try to find something from kinokuniya,
so i can add in sth new for my project perhaps...
but it's been my first time to go out alone,
like... er... i've been thinking how does it feel to go out alone,
to walk alone,
even watch movie alone...
it's just so, alone... -.-
although i can go everywhere i want and when i want...

tuut... then annie called...
"evonne chua why did you go back ulu yam so fast?"
"no ah, i didnt go back ah..."
"where are you?"
"klcc lo, alone..."
"HA? WHY?"
"just wna feel how is it to be alone lo.."
"something wrong?"

lol, its just so not me to be alone i guess,
haha... then annie joined me for movie at last,
watched the legend of fist,
donnie yen was so cool!!!!
another movie idol of mine~~
but i guess i'll try another time,
to feel like how is it gonna be when u're watching movie alone...

back to assignment,
aih... i hope its gonna be okay,
nothing bad is gonna happen,
that's why i cant sleep early tonight,
but its already 2:22 am, bullshxt~~
just came back from green green supper,
vry nice anyway...

it's time to shower!
and do work!!!!

see ya~

last week internship...

next week will be the last week of my internship!
from the first day i step into CMCDesignworks,
until now, its been 3 months!!

well, it's not a bad thing to finish my practical training,
but still there's a weird feeling going inside,
i'm gna miss my desk and my chair,
lol...

i've learn a lot of skills i could say,
sadly not much in design,
but i guess things weren't that bad anway,
at least i get to experience how working life is,
and definitely, i guess i'll give myself maximum of 5 years working life,
the lesser the better of course,
ahaha...
at least i see what can i contribute from what i learn...

well things are going positive i can see,
i've gradually moving to a different position and situation,
i'm not the me i know before,
at least now im not alone,
i've got a bunch of partners growing,
and that's a good news!
we'll be time free in future,
just stop being comfort now!

speaking of im not alone,
i'm actually alone in the other stories,
i'm the only single person left in my entire hometown group,
4 of them, have their loves one,
me? still remain single...
these days im kinda... err... emotional-ly imbalance,
haha, suddenly everything is not the same,
time moves on,
cant let this kind of stupid feeling distract me,
ahaha... but still i feel glad for them of course,
at least everyone around me is happy..

sometimes there are still question floating in my mind,
something that i dont understnad why,
something that i need time to realise and digest...
i believe answers are beyond in me,
just that i need time to dig it out...

cheers...

O.o

its been a month since i update my blog,
way toooo busy...
don't even have the time to msn,
probably facebook still ok to browse through at office,
ahaha...

things looking good,
i guess think positive did really work well,
although there's some heartbroken times,
but overall its a good start!

still in office doing stupid autoCad,
going off soon,
see ya!

its been... 2 years...

everytime, everytime i played the song of anime's theme and soundtrack,
on the keys of black and white,
honey and clover,
final fantasy,
joe hisaishi's pieces,
or whatever is it,
songs from you,
i'll think about moment's we've been through together,
and it all ended so soon,
until now its been... 2 years...

i could say that those days we've been together was really the greatest moment ever in my life,
part of my greatest memories of my life,
it turns out to be some phases that we cant get it through,
till now i actually dont know what's the real reason for this to end up,
everytime i think about it,
maybe's its because of me being immature at that moment?
i really don't know...?

places we've been,
brings back some pictures everytime i went there,
reminds me of something,
reminds me of happiness,
reminds me of sadness,
just... it's still clear in my head,
well i really had to admit that,
i do miss you sometimes...

anyway, i dont know where u r now,
probably still in overseas,
or back to malaysia,
or... somewhere outside... just that,
if only we could meet again i thought,
it will be different i guess...

good luck in your life anyway,
bye...

V-Malaysia 2010

i believe that these few days is part of my most unbelievable days in 2010,

n i really never thought of mdeting Nick Vujicic for real,

not in YOUTUBE anymore!!

he inspired me a lot,

from the stories he told of how he became a speaker,

how he went through all those hard times being different from the others,

but that's not the reason from stopping him to achieve what he wanna do,

and i totally respect that!

for not giving any excuses in doing whatever i want to do,

perhaps it might not be easy for me to be as tough as him,

but at least every problem i solve makes me realized a new thought,

just keep on moving until i see the flag i desire...

for those who doesn't wanna see me success,

i bet they're still out there somewhere...

screw them for not knowing what they even want in their life...

i wont bother much tho...

XD

well this Vcon Malaysia is totally a new experience for me,

to get the chance to meet people from all around the world,

the whole scene for me is like watching World Cup live,

people are waving their country flags and of course,

the theme of FIFA keep on playing in the stadium,

walah!!

the whole world is dancing with the beat!

cant make me stop moving around them!!

of course i get the chance to take photos with all these people,

people form egypt, brazil, africa, hong kong, china,

indonesia, philipines, singapore, thailand, turkey,

europe, british u name it!!!

but i didnt post all the photos of course,

see more in facebook!!

Experienced networkers giving speech,

Nick Vujicic on stage,

Performance from local or overseas,

o.o that's more than i expect,

i'll give myself 3 more years in this,

after that i'll be going all around the world,

for those who think that i'm crazy,

just look what happens after this 3 years...

and also,

i'm in the process of beautifying myself now,

say goodbye of the pale old me,

ahaha...

GOTCHA!

everyday i'll listen to hitz fm jj and ean's gotcha call,

feels fun to listen to their conversation,

and hw ppl react after they realize they're on air with a prank call,

GOTCHA!! tuut!!

but i never expect i'll get a gotcha trick from boss today,

a real good one!

after he went meeting with a friend of him at the conference room,

he walked beside me and said,

"evonne!"

i stood up, kinda shocked,

"yes?"

"my friend told me that actually interns are not need to be paid..."

im like, what? i was about to ask you about my salary today!

"u actually need this internship programme for you to graduate is it?"

".... yes...?"

"means if u don't finish the internship programme means you cant graduate, so this programme is already included as part of your course, since you're still studying right?"

"........ yes......???"

"then by right i don't have to pay you then..."

NO!!! FOR ALL THE HARD DAYS I'VE BEEN THRU IN THIS OFFICE!

"er.... but, still depends on the company's decision right?" to pay or not pay to the interns...

"by law you're not suppose to be paid, even thomas (previous internship) i shouldn't have paid him last time..."

"......(speechless)"

"no la im just joking! haha..."

=.= good one... seriously, i was like thinking should i stop going to work next week,

then he said he was joking...

ahaha...

at least its a joke,

i still got my paid,

TODAY!

^^ well, internship is not that bad eh?

tuut...

(if only u get to receive your cheque!)

Changing~~

yea i know that im kinda have different life than the other students,

not so much fun and entertainments anymore,

always spend time to do lots of lots of things that other students might not be doing,

but i know what i want in the future n its definitely music,

cant stand the way of design process which drags me all the way till the day i submit,

its not that i don't like design,

i like it!

but the only prob is i like to get things done fast,

which wouldn't happen in design career,

all you have to do is design, change, design, change,

and u will have that kind of unfinished feeling for like a very long period,

i don't enjoy that feeling, makes me stress!!

but back to reality i can't really do anything bout it once i've chosen this,

what u studied for the past 2 years,

u gonna spend like 30 years of your life to do the same thing??

nah, i still have the choice,

i like music,

but i still have the knowledge of design,

isnt that bad for me to make a choice right?

yet i had plan B for my future already,

life is great when u get to make your own choice,

i don't wna stuck with the same thing for 30 years until i retire!!

things i definitely wanna do before i die:

1. go to yokohama's ferris wheel for a ride

2. look at nothern light

3. having the one n only music album of my own

so far, this 3 first la!

and im so happy that im going to meet Nick Vujicic in this month!

cant wait for the day to come,

and Tony Fernandes too,

the founder of Tune Air,

how great is it to listen to someone who can make everyone fly!

Nick Vujicic

Tony Fernandes

life is great to be colorful!

once again thanks to all of my partners!

and my mom who supports me the most,

well, at least she is always there to listen,

thanks mom...

5 cent story...

That day i was walking to the taxi stop as usual from my condo,

wondering can i made it in time to reach office by 9am...

when i was collecting coins from my purse,

Mr. 5 cent fell on the floor...

"cling!"

but i ignored,

it's only 5 cent i thought,

only worth for a candy perhaps...

by the time i continued walking suddenly a thought appeared on my mind,

why did i notice when my 5 cent fell?

then why somebody did not realise if their RM50 or RM100 was gone??

its like, the spirit of 5 cent! AHAHA...

well at least the 5 cent is trying to tell me that it still worth for something,

a candy perhaps...

not worth as much as RM100 or RM50,

but it still had its own value in it,

5 cent!

"cling! (hey, i fell!)"

==" something like that??

RM100 or RM50 wouldn't make any noise to remind u if they fell off from ur pocket!

hey be like a 5 cent!!

a 5 cent wouldnt care that how people look down at how it worth,

not as much as RM100!!

IT KNOWS ITS VALUE,

AND IT ALWAYS READY TO LET THE WORLD TO KNOW IT BY

MAKING THE "CLING" SOUND AT ANYWHERE IT LANDED!!

sound so political eh? tuuut...

well regarding to what i've realise,

it happened in our life as well,

different standards of society,

everyone has their own value,

a doctor or a farmer?

doesnt mean that doctor who earns much has much more value that a farmer,

they are still equal!

just like what Ip Man says in the movie...

err,

maybe im not that good in delivering msg in english,

should have wrote in mandarin,

but nevermind la...

at least i realise something from my 5 cent,

and i kinda regret for not picking it up!

R.I.P 5 cent!

i'll always remember the lesson u've taught me,

ahaha!!

fell asleep on the toilet bowl...

well, this shouldnt be happened!

but i was really sleepy like hell this morning!

my colleague was explaining what im gna do and i was fishing through the whole process!

OMG...

after he finished talking i went to the toilet,

was thinking of closing my eyes for a minute,

then...

i fell asleep on the toilet bowl...

TUUT!!

until somebody came in and use the toilet,

then i woke up... =.=

aiyoo,

its only the 2nd day and im dying in the office,

how could i....

still 3 months to go!!

ahaha...

oh yea,

today had lunch with them,

heard them talked bout something interesting,

we went to a cafe which the owner is kinda friendly,

she was chatting around with her customers until she said,

"nowdays its hard to get water,

sometimes i see my customer didnt finish their drink i feel waste,

its not good for the environment also...

and people who shower more than once a day,

i think its a waste of water!

it makes our skin dry also if shower a lot,

and i dont understand why some ppl like to shower once they sweat,

then like shower for 3, 4 times a day!

if me i wouldnt shower in the afternoon,

after i shower i sure will sweat,

makes me feel more dirty!!"

we laughed...

and she also said that the USA government is collecting human hairs now,

to absorb the leaking oil in the sea!

now that's cool!!

but its only a proposal la,

dno whether they're gna make this work or not,

ahahaha...

i've hit my first cheque...

thanks to my partners...

lets move on together!!

p/s: food around my office is expensive,

i'm gonna take my own cereal and milk to office's pantry

and have breakfast there everyday,

tuut!!

i dun wna spend another rm5 for 2 sandwich!!

实习第一天~

说真的，

实习我不担心什么，

只是担心他们忘了有请我这个员工，

然后第一次会莫名其妙地看着我，

然后我要不知所措这样，

真是的。

今天七点就爬起来了，

八点出门搭LRT，

人不会太多，

第一次搭LRT是要去做工的，

大家都是上班族，

好像长大了一点的感觉！

还以为会刚刚好，

怎这早半个钟头到公司，

还要公司没有人的那个，

有点无奈，

只好自己先吃个早餐等时间过咯。

好不容易等到有人了！

幸好他知道我是新来的，

幸好没有莫名其妙地看着我！！！

感觉好新鲜哦，

第一次来上班呢！

头一个钟头感觉很奇怪，

因为没有东西做，

只是看着电脑发呆，

又不敢上网，

因为是小公司，

老板的位在我对面罢了！

知道同事给了我一些东西做后，

就觉得时间很快过，

Autocad换layer就这样换了一整天，

还要换三个图，

整天做一样的东西很恐怖，

整天对着电脑更恐怖！

肩膀好酸好酸！！

只是第一天罢了，

就累倒啦，

晚餐也懒得自己驾车出去吃,

只好等明少回来咯。

还要做三个月，

还好同事们都很友善，

还可以说笑以下！

也因为是小公司的关系，

所以我不用担心三个月都做一样的东西！

哈哈哈哈哈哈！

明天又要开工！

去吧！！！！

Umbanana~ Ambernana~ Lemon~

for a person who dont like fish like me,

well,

i'm happy to say that umbanana is the first fish who caught my eye sight,

fell in love with it for the first time...

haha of course at first its a whole tank of yellow fish,

but i've chosen this one!

umbanana and ambernana...

gorgeous color! AHHH!!!!

I HOPE THEY LAST LONG IN NELSON'S TANK!!

umbanana kinda reminds me of bell in beauty and the beast,

when she's wearing her night gawn,

XD too bad he's a MALE!

(ambernana= female,

lemon= male)

3 of the fishes we bought...

top: umbanana

middle: ambernana

bottom: lemon

orange: not important, just neighbour

the first fish which made me fall in love with it,

will always be the only umbanana...

god bless you live strong in that scary tank...

i will visit you tomorrow!!

die hard!!!!!!!!

move on!!

i felt different,
in this few months time i think i've changed a little,

how i used to see my life im having now,

or how i used to judge people around me,

i've learn how to think from another perspectives,

not only to stuck myself in one edge,

but to find another way out when i know how to turn around...

well, maybe,

not everyone will realize bout this,

or maybe no one would wanna care bout this,

but what matters is me myself,

it's gonna be my life,

it's gonna be my future,

who's gonna care bout other people's god damn future?!

i can't actually do anything bout how people think of me,

but i will do something to make my life to be the life i want...

i won't just live like "i know i will go through my life",

instead i must make it like "i must live my life the way i want it to be!"

Nick Vujicic inspired everyone,
and he gave me thoughts of,
there's nothing you cannot achieve,
it just depends on how much u want it,
how long u can stay for it,
whatever it's gonna be,
no matter how hard it is,
as long you don't give up then u'll do it...
that kind of attitude he has in his life,
makes him love his life although he is physically different with other people,
but for him, he's just the same,
he still belongs to where he is...

if we keep on blaming of everything happened around us,

blaming your homework,

blaming your college,

blaming the society,

blaming the government,

is it gonna give you any changes for your life?

would it make you to live better in future??

so, are you still taking everything for granted?

think again...

recently i saw ken's message asking us to watch "The Cove"
that time i thought,
slaughter of dolphins... em...
i'll watch it if i had the time...
and guess what,
i'll feel so regret if i didnt watch it...

i never had many thoughts for dolphins,
until i watched what the japanese hide from the world...
its cruel, its... i don't understand why they did that...

dolphins,
they're one of the animals which are willing to try to communicate with humans,
as you see they won't avoid humans but move closer to them instead,
there's a connection between them and human,
even there's no direct communication happened...
and bout stories of dolphins saving human,
its not a legend, its real...



but what did the japanese did is,
every sept of the year,
fishermen would release high supersonic sounds in the sea,
to frighten the dolphins so that they would swim n gathered to a sea bay.
the next day, dolphin trainers would came to pick those they wanted to bring back to be trained for performing,
while the rest of the dolphins,
would just have to wait to be slaughtered.

one point i dont understand is,
why would they carry out this kind of activity,
since dolphin meat is not highly requested in the market,
yet it's meat contains extremely high level of mercury,
which could affects human health seriously...
they could even blame that dolphins and whales should be killed,
because they affected the standard quantities of fish to be catched...
the human should be blamed! not the dolphins or whales!!
most of the japanese doesnt know about slaughter of the dolphins,
cuz it happens in the place where no one could ever see what's happening...



RIC O'BARRY,
he's the guy who organize a secret team,
to reveal how the dolphins were killed in groups,
to tell the whole world what is happening,
what he did to try to help the dolphins was amazing,
secret missions of setting up hidden cameras,
its risky,
once they were caught there's no chance for another try!
we love you ric...



well, the scene was kinda distracting,
as the whole sea bay turned to be red,
dolphins were struggling when there's no way to run..
those people were just standing on the boat,
stabbing the dolphins with spears as its a piece of cake!
when i was watching i was like,
somebody do something bout it!!
well, luckily they did it...
thanks to them,
people knew what happened...

i hope this cruel activity had already been discriminated...
to set the dolphins free...
finally,
thanks to ken for recommending this!